Saturday night ......

Saturday night ..... what does that mean to you? I know for me it may include a glass of wine or even some take out food. I never really did the nights out even when I was younger, and in some ways I regret that. When I was younger I had the chance to do the nights out but I was always scared and I wasted all that time.
In general I think my lack of confidence over the years has so made an impact on my life. I have had so many opportunity's and let most of them slip threw my fingers. I am a born worrier and tend to run events through in my mind and then always put myself off.
It is also true that we tend to often leave conversation or jobs so long that it then becomes a no go area.
I had this conversation the other day and about regret of letting time slip past and never saying what you want to.
I guess as you get older you have sadness over people who you can't speak to anymore. They may have passed away or moved away or choose to stay away. It doesn't mine the love for them is any less and even if you can't be with them you know how much they are loved.
I think " I love you" is something we tend to not say as often as we should. So shall I start by saying just that to all those I care for as I really do mean it very much.
Tell someone you love them today!

Picture Prompt

Picture Prompt today! I have to be honest I did not know what I was going to talk about today. So I thought why not open my pictures and talk about the first one that loads.

So this is my picture! It was taken on the 7th July 1979 and it is my husband Kevin and myself on our wedding day.

Kevin was in the Royal Navy and we had been penpals for over a year. When he came home on leave he asked to meet up. My dad was totally against me going out with a stranger so he made him come to our house. He turned up in uniform looking very handsome and had a shine on his shoes to see your face in lol.

We hit it off straight away and within a month we were engaged! Yes you read it right I was engaged.

We had people saying it was too fast and it would never last but we went ahead with it anyway.

It was a lovely day and we had the best wedding party with bridesmaids Emma, Lucy and Carole and pageboy Sam. Kevin was well supported by friend Les.

I only wish I had a video of the day but at that time it was really expensive and we could not afford it.

So I think that we have proved it did last as this July we have been married for 34yrs! Don't get me wrong its not been all roses all the time, but we still love each other and will be together forever.

You have to work at a marriage and I know that is not always easy. If someone is worth it you will be able to make the effort. 

I am very grateful to Kevin for the last 34 yrs and for all he has done for me and our wonderful children Matthew and Natalie.

Love you Kevin

Why not try a Picture Prompt yourself its fun!

Diet Fail

Diet fail yet again! In fact total diet fail for weeks. I can't tell you how much I hate being overweight and its not just for the way I look. With all my health problems it also affects the way I live my life, and the quality of that life. These days I don't go out much as its such an effort to do so. I feel very lacking in confidence and every item of clothing to me looks bad.
My daughter has recently lost nearly 10 stone ( 14 pounds to a stone) and is looking so great. I am so pleased for her but I also feel sad for myself as I want that as well.

I have had help in the past from a couple of people and the best being The Jane Plan which I was lucky enough to try out for a little while. I did lose weight but I found it hard to keep it up as like most people these days money is tight. I thought I would be able to keep it going alone but sadly its not to be.
I once had someone tell me " if you watched what you put in your mouth, you would lose weight"! I wish it was as simple as that. I do always try to watch what I eat but I have such a lack of mobility I just do not burn it off.
I would like to do so much but the weight so holds me back physically and mentally. I am 55 this year and I want to still do a lot of living but I don't know if I ever will.
I must have spent a fortune on diet products over the years and I wish I could just say "to heck with it all" but I can't.
So I will put on my "jollyjilly" smile and hide the tears below the surface. I hope if like me you are trying to lost weight you have a good week. So for me I am going to go one day at a time.

Bullied

Bullied. What does it mean to you? If you have been bullied you will understand and if you have not then maybe you should look into the subject.

As a child I was very tiny which was a constant worry to my parents. Then when I turned five it totally went the other way and I put on weight. No one could find the answer as it was not from eating too much . At this time I started school and at first it was fine, but the older I got the worse the bullying got. The kids would pick on my because I was chubby and not very outgoing.
The older I got the worse it became and never under estimate how bad children can be.
When I went to the senior school at 11 it was a nightmare at times. The first year was great as I had been put in a lower class. As I was bright I was in demand and everyone wanted to be my friend. Them after a year they moved me into a new class and all those friends had gone. My friends from the lower class didn't want me as I was a snob and my new class mates didn't want me either.

I still remember what it was like to stand in the playground on my own , pretending to read like I wasn't bothered about being alone. I was very lonely in those years and hated going to school, most days I would have done anything to get out of going. As a result those early days of my being bright disappeared as I let my school work slip.

I never really got over those early days of being bullied and even though I am an adult I still carry the scars from those days.
Thankfully these days I am married and happy but I wish I could go back in time and tell my 12 year old self its going to be ok.

Flash Bang What a Picture

Flash Bang What a Picture today. I was trying to blog every day in May but I have missed a few days. Like most people you get caught up in life and before you know it a few days, months or years have passed lol.
So I am back today and I thought I would share a picture with you . The thing is I found it hard to pick one. In the end I found this one.

Matthew and Natalie This is a picture of my children just before a talent show. My daughter was a T.V celeb called Anneka Rice. She did a show where people in the studio would talk to her and give her directions to rush all over the place. They had to answer clues then send her to that place to win a prize. I think she looks so cute and love the Huge ear phones as well. My son Matthew was a very famous UK boxer at the time called Frank Bruno. He is holding a bottle of a brown sauce as Frank was the face of that brand at the time. It took me ages to cover him in face paints and even longer to wash it off lol. They didn't win but I think they look great. Now they are grown up these memories are so special. When your children are small you think you will have so much time, then in a flash its gone. We would go to a holiday park every year in May as it was the cheap time and it was all we could afford. We loved being able to go to the beach whatever the weather and play. We made sand castles in the rain lol. We could give Matthew more freedom as he got older at the park because we knew he would be safe, and back then he was. They had loads to do and the whole family could relax and have fun. Now they are grown up into adults I do sometimes miss those holidays. Life was simple and we could give them a little money and they would think they had a fortune lol So if you have young children concentrate on building up those happy memories for them as well as for yourself. Time flashes past and when you get to my age you realise how important those memories are with your children. I am so proud of my children and they have grown into wonderful adults . I hope you enjoyed my flash bang what a pic So Matthew and Natalie I love you so much xxxxxxx

10 things that make me happy

Ten things that make me happy is the next one in my month of post challenge. So here goes

1. My family..... I love my husband of 34 years very much, he is someone who has provided for us over the years and for that I say thank you. I adore my children Matthew and Natalie and they are the light of my life. I am so proud of them both everyday.

2. My pet's .... I have one cat called Daisy who is getting very old she is special and I will miss her a lot when she is no longer with me. My cat cfer who died last year when I  think of her cozy up on the bed, it makes me smile. I wish she was still with me

3. My hobbies...... I have so many but I love to cake decorate and sew and card make. I love to meet up with friends and craft for a few hours

4. Tea ...... I love a cup of tea. Not too strong and no sugar ummmm

5. Sleep...... I live with a lot of pain so the times when I can sleep and I am pain free is great

6. A peaceful hour in church

7. The sea.... I love to watch the sea and smell the air

8. Anything paranormal...... movies, books you name it

9. Seeing my best friend Sue

10. Christmas and winter..... love that time of year

So that's my 10 whats yours?

Sorry So Sorry

Ok its is still my blog everyday in May challenge and today it is issue an apology.

I would like to say a Huge sorry to the man in the cinema that I goosed back in 1979.
Yes you read it right I goosed a man can you believe that.
It was a bright sunny day and we went to the movies. My husband and I were late for the start of the movie, and wanted to go in. As we got inside it was so dark you could not see your hand in front of your face.
He whispered to me that he had found a row of empty seats and then disappeared . I stumbled along the row and when I hit a leg I sat down.
I proceeded to run my hand up and down his leg and said "its ok darling I found you". Then a really deep voice said " sorry love he has gone down there"! To my total embarrassment I had goosed a strange man and my man was a few seats down laughing himself silly.
So I would like to say if you were that man in that cinema in Plymouth Devon in 1979 I am so sorry lol